Young Love

"As much as you love is as much as you hurt." - Britney Spears.

When I love someone, I really love them. It's all or nothing with me when it comes to relationships. I love the feeling of having somebody to love and care for. But I've found with my last couple of relationships that I don't get back what I put in. I realise that I have many flaws as a girlfriend. I am a very jealous and insecure person because my trust has been battered a lot throughout my life, so it takes me a while to warm up to people. And once I let them in, I think sometimes I let down my guard too much, especially when it comes to relationships. And so when that person hurts me, they really hurt me. I think though that jealousy and insecurities are part of young love, because I'm still young and I'm still finding myself, and these are childish qualities. With maturation comes confidence and I think that's part of growing up. But I'm not ready to grow up, not yet. So for now young love is taking me over.

Major Blog Fail

The reason why I recreated this blog was so that I had a place to share my thoughts. But then, so much happened literally right before and after this blog went back up I haven't had a chance to post much as of yet. And also, because so much has happened, I'm not sure what to blog about or where to start. So tonight, I had great intentions of writing an amazingly long blog post. But an hour later, I still have no post. I would love to be an incredible blogger full of things to say, but everytime I go to write my mind blanks.
So tonight I will post this as my promise to become that amazing blogger, fully aware that this will take time, but one day I will have really long interesting posts and I will be proud of my own writing. I promise myself that I will work hard at this blog and make it the blog I want it to be. And one day I will look back at my promise and know that this is where it all began.

I'm Back

In 2008/ 2009 I had a blog called Confessions of a Major Britney Fan. I deleted it because I never knew what I should write about. The truth was I had a lot to say, I just didn't think people would be interested in it. But since then a lot has happened and over time I have realised that I don't want to write a blog for other people. My blog should be for me. So here I am, 4 years later. I need a place I can escape to and share all my thoughts. This blog will be my sanctuary. It is the beginning of my new journey. Whoever may read this blog is welcome to join me along the way.